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In
case you forgot me,
I
am your disease!
I
hate meetings.
I
hate higher power.
I
hate anyone who has a program.
To
all who come in contact with me,
I
wish you death and I wish you suffering.
Allow
me to introduce myself.
I
am the disease of Alcoholism.
Cunning,
baffling, and powerful.
That's
me.
I
have killed millions, and I am pleased.
I
love to catch you with the element of surprise.
I
love pretending I am your friend and lover.
I
have given you comfort, have I not?
Wasn't
I there when you were lonely?
When
you wanted to die, didn't you call me?
I
was there.
I
love to make you hurt.
I
love to make you cry.
Better
yet, I love when I make you so numb you can neither hurt nor cry.
You
can't feel anything at all.
This
is true glory.
I
will give you instant gratification and all I ask of you is long term suffering.
I've
been there for you always.
When
things were going right in your life, you invited me.
You
said you didn't deserve these good things and I was the only one who would
agree with you.
Together
we were able to destroy all the things good in your life.
People
don't take me seriously.
They
take strokes seriously, heart attacks,
even
diabetes they take seriously - fools that they are. They don't know
that without my help,
these
things would not be made possible.
I
am such a hated disease.
And
yet, I do not come uninvited.
You
choose to have me.
So
many have chosen me over reality and peace.
More
than you hate me,
I
hate all of you who have a 12 step program.
Your
program, your meetings, your higher power:
All
weaken me and I can't function in the manner I am accustomed to.
Now
I must lie here quietly.
You
don't see me.
But
I am growing, bigger than ever.
When
you only exist, I may live.
When
you live, I only exist.
But
I am here. Until we meet again.
If
we meet again, ---
I
wish you death and suffering.