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The Madness Never Stops - By Robert
Hello my name is Robert
and I'm an alcoholic.
I took my first drink at the age of 12 and you might say its been all down
hill from there. Alcoholism is one of the most deceiving diseases there is
because by the time you figure out you have a problem (at least in my case)
you have left a wake of destruction behind you and have hurt many people that
you care about deeply. I have been in jail on several occasions 2 D.U.I.'s many
destroyed relationships, I flunked out of college and I have even been
through a 5 day detox, but through all of that I didn't think I had a
problem. It really is the very essence of insanity (alcoholism) because you do
all of these terrible things yet when the little voice inside of you starts
talking to you all of these things are immediately forgotten. Yes when you
realize you have a problem at least in my case it is to the point that I
don't "want a drink I "need a drink just to get by. Yes you heard it
right I
know I have a problem and I am still drinking and don't know if I can stop.
I'm still a young fellow but you can do the math, I took my first drink at 12
and I'm 29 very soon to be 30. So you see alcohol has been with me all my
adult life. I might as well tell you what finally made me realize that I am
an alcoholic. My best friend doesn't know this and this might be selfish of me
but I hope he never knows this, but I got drunk one night about 3 weeks ago
and went to his house thinking he was at home but he was at work and his wife
which is also a very dear friend of mine answered the door and let me in.
This wasn't unusual because I used to live next door to them and used to go
and see her all the time when her husband was at work. I was like part of the
family. Anyway I know I'm dragging this out because Honestly its very hard to
say this, to make a very long story short we ended up sleeping together and
what is so bad while I was drunk it didn't seem "not right" to do that
and now
I am in an awful situation and don't know if I will ever straighten things
out. That next morning when I woke up next to my friends wife was the worst
feeling I have ever had in my life, and that got me to thinking about things
and I finally realized that I am an alcoholic. Like the title says the
madness never ends I hope one day it will.
Robert.
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