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The Party Is Over! - By Randy

I'm a 40 year old drunk that has been fooling himself sense I was 9 or 10. I started to drink with blackberry wine my neighbor made in his basement... of course he didn't know but just left a note to return the empty bottles, cause they cost him money.

Now I wish I'd been caught.

I've been partying ever since.

But the time has come to stop, I've been through it all, and am ashamed of the things I've done to my family and friends... If they only really knew...

I went sober once for almost 7 months, was attending A.A. and was trying to remarry the wife I had ,which I did, and am thankful I was able to stay sober long enough to do it.

But now, I'm right back at it, I felt I won the war and felt I could drink again I guess, I still am not sure why I started again. But I do know I'm done.

I've lost thousands of dollars because of gambling, which I know was because if drinking and not caring.

But most of all I'm not in the health I was in when I was sober, and I can see the hand writing on the wall, I'm just about to lose the love of my life again.

Not only have my children suffered along with me but they have been through enough.

I want to be able to see my grandchildren and to grow old, but if I don't stop now I'll never see any true dreams come to life.

I hope and pray that God hears me and forgives me of the foolish things I've done and pulls me up to begin my life in his direction. God knows I've tried, AND FAILED.

I'm done.

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